Neverland

Warning: sappy love stuff If you're judging, it's cause you are jealous :P  *boxes out everyone else* Emily Grey, you have no idea how much you mean to me. I constantly think about you, but my hope is that you're happy. When I make you laugh, when I make you smile- That's mission accomplished When you sent that text: "You make me the happiest girl alive" That's mission accomplished. But it restarts every time.  I want to forever make you the happiest girl alive. That's all I want.  I hope you read this and smile, because That's mission accomplished.  I don't know what I'm supposed to be one day. I don't know if I should know or not, But if you're by my side, I'm happy.  If I could look into the future, and you were there, That's mission accomplished.  I don't know if anyone still reads this at all; even you really.. But if you happen to stumble upon this, know that your Jo...

I've never thought about the story of Peter walking on water to Jesus this way. The life altering moment when Peter climbed out of his boat onto the giant waves that could have just in one second brought him under and killed him is the moment when we accept Christ. It is a leap of faith, it really is. By accepting Christ, you say, although I've never physically seen a person die and go to heaven, and although there's no way for me to have physical proof that this will save me or that this is real, I believe it with my whole heart and I'm giving my life to this. It was the same thing with Peter. He had never seen anyone else walking around with Jesus on the water. He had no proof whatsoever that this would work and he wouldn't just die right then, but he took that leap of faith. As he is walking on the water, this is our Christian walk. This is where we cannot live without God. This is where we realize that we are nothing without Him and without His support we are...

Honestly really missing the days when we would all hang out at the Grey's and watch a movie or play games. Emily and I hopeful that it would last forever. Grace, Hannah, Emily, Ethan, and Nick, y'all will always be my squad. Miss y'all so much. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Fi 'n sylweddol yn dymuno na fyddai drama rhwygo ar wahân cyfeillgarwch. Doedd gen i ddim rhan yn -. .. -.-. -.- Ac .... .- -. -. .- .... .----. ... Perthynas ac yr wyf yn cael unrhyw ran yn -. .-. .- -.-. . a. - .... .- -. .----. ... Berthynas, ond yn dal eu bod yn torri o flaen fy a lladd fy ngrŵp ffrind mewn eiliad. Onest, roedd gan y merched yn y grŵp hwnnw unrhyw barch at y guys oedd am berthynas. Bobl sy'n derbyn gofal am ei gilydd a phobl taflu i ffwrdd. Rwy'n gwybod fy mod yn cael unrhyw fusnes yn dwlu ar pam eu bod yn torri i fyny, ond yr wyf yn dymuno nad oeddent erioed wedi gotten at ei...

Lord, how can you call me to lead when I can't hold my own? And when I write that I see my flawed logic. I can never hold my own; Lord hold me up. I am a filthy sinner, and I shouldn't teach or lead, but I'm called to. I sin over and over, and when I ask for forgiveness and do it again, I'm so foolish! I know that only guilt comes, but again and again I disobey you. Lord hold me up, you are my strong tower. You are my fortress and my shield, help me to take refuge in You. Help me to abide in You, when I talk about it so much. Thank you for saving my life from eternal despair and separation from You. I don't deserve Your grace, but You want me to take it. Thank You for always welcoming me back in with open arms after I run away from You. Your love never fails, and I am your prodigal son. It must get frustrating to watch me, but in the end, I always run back to You. Thank You

I guess it's been a while since I was "depressed" And I guess that's why I'm posting on my blog... I hate using that word, because I know there are many people out there Who actually know real depression and have a good reason for it. I have everything I have the most perfect girlfriend, my dream school right in front of me, amazing friends, and the most faithful God. Izzy knows that I don't do well when I'm not around other people and I'm thinking. Since Alex moved, and Emily's busy, and Nick and I don't hang out, and Payton lives in Wylie, and seniors are busy, I don't have people to put myself around so that I can stop thinking. I just need to work. And work. And work. I say that I don't have as much school, but maybe that's why I have bad grades. But shouldn't I value my involvement in church above school? I could be studying this weekend, but I won't Shouldn't that be a good thing? Not today ...

And there's nobody I can talk to at 12:30 in the morning, but I need to But also, I can't afford to be tired tomorrow And I can't sleep, And I can't scream, And I can't go outside. And I might pass out tomorrow, but please this time, Can I just stay for a while? I don't want to do this presentation I don't want to take another test I don't want to work to bring up my grade I don't want to deal with people I don't want to go to the bank I want to skip to the good part But what if it's just an illusion? What if there is no good part? What if it all just seems better, but when you get to it, it sucks? Cause that's how my life has been so far. The grass is always greener on the other side, But that's because the farmer uses a ton of pesticides and chemicals So when you actually eat the grass, It ends up killing you from the inside And by that point, you jumped the fence, Your farmer hates you because you abandoned hi...

And you! Who do you think you are?  What have I done to hurt your oh so precious feelings? Step up! You're no leader! You don't get it How can you think I'm in the wrong? All that I've ever done is for the group All that I've ever done is for the church And you think I'm out to get you Lose your pride  Stop jumping to conclusions and see in color Not everything is always the way you think There's reason, but you've never tried to see it You're blinded by your fake kindness You're doing nobody good You're killing the point Take responsibility if you really think you should

You aren't God This isn't a take what you can get relationship A friendship tries A friendship answers I called you faithful but you constantly ignore me  I called you faithful and you constantly put me off Everyone is busy, don't put yourself above everyone else I wait for weeks and weeks and you have not started I wait for weeks and weeks and you haven't tried But you expect me to drop everything I have for you?  Every time we talk, you act like you care so much But you will never do anything! How am I supposed to trust you? I look up to you, but how would you feel if I treated you the way you treat me? I know everyone always wants you, and you feel like everyone steals your time,  But if you're going to call me one of your closest friends,  You have to find one of those 24 hours.  I know you're in school, I know you're a busy man,  but respond to me.  You will have me over when I need you, but when I get there, I'll...

I don't know if you can see this, from where you are and I really hope I know- where you are but from where I am, it's hard to look back and say "I'm glad." I remember your love for me I think that's why I loved you so much I didn't know you too well, but you were my hero I wonder, if you were still here, would you be proud of me? Would you like my music, and my ruckus? That was one of the most devastating moments of my life... I needed you there. The look on my mother's face as I was playing in the foyer and I didn't have to guess Why did you just give up? You missed out on at least three grandchildren You'll never know The last time I saw you was at a wedding, but from that event there's now two babies Why did you just give up? I wish you would come and call me Josephito Pop-pop, are there white tigers in heaven?

Yay Emily did another one!! :)  A song you like with a color in the title:  "Red" by Taylor Swift A song you like with a number in the title:  "21 guns" by Green Day A song that reminds you of summertime:  "Dreaming June" by... Me  A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about:  "All of Me" by John Legend A song that needs to be played LOUD:  "Thnks fr th mmrs" by Fall Out Boy A song that makes you wanna dance:  "All About Us" by He is We and Owl City A song to drive to:  "Ride" by Twenty One Pilots A song that you never get tired of:  "Let The Flames Begin- Live at the Red Rocks" by Paramore A song from your preteen years:  "City On Our Knees" by TobyMac One of your favorite 80's songs: "The Final Countdown" by Europe A song you like that is a cover by another artist:  "Blank Space" by I Prevail One of your favorite classical songs:  "Mass in B Mino...