Neverland

My mind works in crazy ways Like sometimes it leaves and sometimes it stays Hopin for absolutely nothing but the best But then always thinkin that what i got is a mess Woo Woo Worse Case Senario Like my goldfish dying while I was playin Hi-Ho Cheerio I dont usually think of all the possiblities just the ones that I dont want and it works to wake and scare me Please just let me know you're alright cuz in my mind you fell off a cliff and died I can't stand what this dumb mind creates for me I just hope for it, ignore it, sleep on it, snore on it I can't help checkin my phone just like I do my fridge waitin for somethin new to come until I curl in a ball and I cringe Waiting for you makes time literally slow Slower and slower until the only single thing I know Is how to watch the clock on my com OMG JUST GOT A TEXT  oh look it was my mom -_- Dont laugh at me fool I got news for you I text my mom when I want to and she's a nice person and when you're ...

I just thought up some lyrics and wanted to jot them down, Walkin down the hall you think you look all tough but is that because you thinkin that your life's all rough you need to think about somebody else's feelings and all the other crap that they been dealin with the world looks at you and dissaproves cuz you been pickin on the kids that have nothin to do we are all the same here buddy we got our struggles I know all our lives are cruddy but the smuggles? The pushin the punchin the smushin the crushin The worst you can do is use your words for kung foo You break us all down by breakin our crowns You know we try to understand your situation we do But its hard to look past all the rude stuff you do It does you even worse I swear To let them know nobody cares Cuz when you thinkin your friends'll be there All you get is murderous stares I learned somethin new this week about all these kids I never thought I'd meet You look and automatically say I d...

Pinecove, Journey, Beach Blast, Kids Club, A Month of JB, Southern Junction, Washington, Summer Service Trip, Segway Tour, South Carolina, Panic! At the Disco...  Sounds like an exciting summer! So thankful that it is mine! :D

The movie has ended My summer was bended I never thought I would Meet a friend I could Have forever in France I will not see him in the morning So right now I am mourning I said my last good bye Tomorrow he will be in the sky Going back to France Words could never say How I feel when I feel this way It's like saying farewell To a brother I've gotten to know so well Have a great life, back in France

I have a dear friend Letters I will always send He will always be remembered How he never surrendered He could do anything he wanted He didn't get it the first time, and grunted He learned his way through this place I'm sure he could get to outer space He is the most determined guy I know He'd do his "training" through sun or snow He created memories, laughs, and smiles I know that we will miss him a while As he flies his way oversea We will still be yelling goodbye to JB.

The subconcious can be a terrible thing It searches your minds for the deepest of dreams It searches for all your very best wishes And grants you them no matter how ficticious It also finds the scariest fears The ones that you hear and just scream with plugged ears It can sometimes show you what you want to see And other times what you dread after your prayers and pleas When you wake up you wish you'd never fallen asleep But after hours of crying, you realize sleep your mind keeps People come and ask if alright You need no attention so you reply positively than sigh You wish that you could answer truthfully And you remember your dream of cruelity You continue to move on and think your ok Life gets hard when you continue this way Keeping others out to live in the dark Was one of the worse things in my life I can mark I see that your friends, your sister is there To comfort you every time that you're scared Please I'd wish you'd soon sleep better I as...

The spot on my door takes the shape of a lolipop It is the color black It is located across the door  at the same level as the knob It is about two inches long It is very noticable I could wash it off But it would wash away some great memories

I have a picture that sits in my room. It looks like just another pattern. You don't see anything special about it. But it's special to me. My mom gave it to me. At first I didn't see the need. She told me to look hard at the picture. Still I saw nothing. It made me so curious that I stared at it everytime I was in my room. I tried looking all around the picture for a break in the pattern, for something different. I tried looking at it normally, I tried squinting. I tried looking cross-eyed. Nothing came. I stared straight in the middle of it for about 10 minutes. Searching for answers, for something new. And at the moment when I thought I would never see the real picture, it stood out wide and clear. Now everytime I glance at it, I see the hidden message. The beauty of it, is that you will never understand it.

Once in a while, you should try Beating at things until they die Grab a stick and just start swinging It will help if you start believing That beating things is not so cruel When what your beating is made for duel Dont beat things made of meat or living flesh with hearts a'beat The poor little thing did nothing to you So stop the beating and maybe pet it too If I were you I buy some drums So when you are in pain with swollen gums Beat at those until they die That's what instrument you should try :)

Well I'd walk on fire just to be next to you And I'd climb the highest mountain just to see your point of view And I'd swim the edge of the earth if you said you wanted proof Yeah I'd do that for you -Mayday Parade

To the one and only, I am astonished at your magic. You have done something new. I felt my life was tragic, until getting to know you. I can't really decide if I was just blind but I now realize you are one of a kind. You make me want to fly, I think I should try. When I opened that door, I learned how to soar. I ask the same question as one of my favorite men. Oh please tell me, "When can I see you again?" I'm dying to dart but I need to slow down. I want to Skip to the Good Part, but I'd feel like a clown. It would show that I have not learned from the past. Then comes the sigh, but I want us to last. If you read this note, please just know that I feel like a goat dancing in the snow. (Happy) Sorry, that was sappy. But totes for reals you have changed my life just like a dunk. 360 degrees, I swear I almost sunk. You caught me in time and you threw a rope. I looked up to the sky and saw you standing all dope. I can't wait to look back at all the maps we ma...

Suddenly I'm feeling brave Don't know what's got in to me Why I feel this way Can we dance Real slow? Can I hold you? Can I hold you close?

I watch. I'm just out of arms reach. She falls. It's over. Tears streaming. I'm screaming. I see her eyes beaming. The next moment she's gone. I could have saved her, but it's all my fault. I could have forgave her, and it's all my fault. There's no going back. I can't do anything. I have to move on. I have to breath. Keep breathing. Be strong. For her. Be strong for her siblings and her parents. Be strong for my siblings and my parents. But now I'm dressed in black. Screens play pictures. Screens show clips. People lined up. People whined up. People cry. People sigh. Someone talks. Words passing through ears. I don't believe anything. I don't believe anything. She's here somewhere. She's got to be. She is. Her body lay still. White skin. Pale lips. Closed eyes. My wet eyes. They cling to the sight of her. But as the tears wash over my vision my vision of her fades. Just like the moment she fell. And in one moment everything goes blac...

Theres something inside  You have to hide Don't Theres something that tells you You can't be you I won't Believe you have nothing to share A funny story or something of your care Talk I love your voice, if you'd just use it God gave you humor so don't abuse it Knock On the door and you will see That if you open up, you'll be happy Be you, for me I cant wait to see you, I want to see Who you are inside So please don't hide You don't have to be shy

He walked outside. He did his chores. The birds did not chirp. The wind did not whistle. It was silent. He had no radio to distract him from his thoughts. So he thought freely. He thought about her. He thought about dancing. He thought about a song. He sang the song. Nobody could here. Not a soul. That was how he liked it. That was when he sang with his heart. That was when he didn't care what he sounded like. That was when he sang their song. Our song.

He sits on his bed And plays the strings of the ukulele And he sings He sings to himself He sings to her But she's not there anymore He plays the strings singing confidently but when he turns around she's gone

I remember sitting on the floor. Sweat dripping from my chin and my hair. Heavy breaths coming from my mouth and lungs, and all the others in the room. In the room adjacent, a scoreboard that had the numbers 38 and 18. Down by twenty. Half a game left. So tired. Gulping down water. Sweat stinging in my eyes. Holding on to hope of winning. The hope floated around the room and into my teammates. The hope lighting up eyes. Lifting chins. Calming down these players. This hope came from the words of my coach. Just like we practiced. One stop, one score. One stop, one score.  You can't win them all. But keep pressing on. One stop. One score. I don't know what this means to you, but to me it represents something much larger than basketball. One stop, one score. One stop. One score. 

I get way more attached to book characters than anyone I actually know in person. So days like this, when I finish a good book, become the worst days of my life. But the best. Fan girl me.  #killgally #savechuck #wickedsux 

"It's nice to have someone to remind you that you can slow down and not grow up for a while."

I don't know how to show you how I feel I don't know if I should even try But I want you to know that my affection is real I'm going to tell the truth, I can't lie You make me joyful inside You make me feel so happy I always hate myself when I leave your side Because I acted so crappy I don't know how to act Until I think on it later I hope my mind is in tact I should ask the waiter. Mater? Can you cater a satyr? No, I told the baiter to date her. Gator. Don't trust me I must be 100% insane Bust me Before I open a bowling lane And invite all the crazy kids to bowl With bowls on a pole. "It will make you so swoll When you bowl on the grassy knoll" I describe it as "high on tired" It's just how my brain has been wired I'm watching my brother climb up a mountain Video games don't please mother When you're jumping into a fountain Maybe the creators of the game created that game as I They maybe thought ...

I have a book on my bookshelf that reminds me of you A picture on my chalkboard, everything I listen to Wherever I go and whatever I do It somehow always tends to make me think of you

Hey! Just uploaded a new drum cover! Go check it out! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MrfqL5Qhpzk

Now when I say I miss you  It's more than just a few words I'm secretly saying, too That I hear your voice in the birds I think about you when I sleep You're my every night's dream All the memories I keep However goofy they seem I think about you when I look Outside the window When our hands first shook You tried to keep on the downlow Your shyness never kept me Away from noticing you I hope you won't forget me Cuz I miss you

"Although he claimed to be an agnostic, Carl Sagan made the ultimate statement of faith in atheistic materialism  when he claimed that 'the Cosmos is all that is or ever was or ever will be.' How did he know  that for sure? He didn't. How could he? He was a limited human being with limited knowledge. Sagan was operating in the realm of probability just like Christians are when the say God exists. The question is, who has more evidence for their conclusion? Which conclusion is more reasonable? As we'll see when we look at the evidence, the athiest has to muster a lot more faith than the Christian." -Norman L. Geisler and Frank Turek from ' I Don't Have Enough Faith to Be an Athiest' Interesting book. 

So Emily did this prompt about songs. And if you haven't read it, it's awesome. Andsoemilybegan.blogspot.com So I asked if I could do it too and here I am! These are just different songs in my life that are just part of me I guess!  A song from my childhood: pretty much everything by Trout Fishing in America! A song that reminds me of my parents: my mom: Dancing Queen, my dad: Call Me the Breeze A song that calms me down: Ordinary Day by Vanessa Carlton A song that is often stuck in my head: Misery Business by Paramore A song that reminds me of a best friend: Beneath your Beautiful by Labrynth A song that makes me hopeful: Love Story by Taylor Swift 😜 A song by my favorite band: either Check Yes Juliet by We the Kings or Beautiful Times by Owl City A song on the soundtrack of my favorite movie: We're going to be Friends by White Stripe The last song I heard: Kings and Queens by Thirty Seconds to Mars A song I love singing along to: Terrible Things by Mayday Parade and Car ...

Listening to your song again Makes me think of you And then how it will be To say so long again It makes me sad That you aren't here But when I close my eyes I'm not that sad Because I see your face Smiling at me And your eyes Put a smile on my face So I listen to your song Then feel sad But get that smile Because of your song

Me: wow that's a smart dog Steven: Joseph, that could be Ajax in a few years Me: we'll my dog isn't a German shepherd Steven: we'll if you train it Dad: If you train it? That's like making Minte Italian!

You'd think me insane But seeing fireworks from a plane Had me almost as amazed  As when I first saw them blaze

I see you standing all alone I think you're talking on the phone I look down to see your hands A Bible in your hands it stands It says to me she's mine to keep To get to her its one big leap I don't know when she'll cross the sea But you'll see, if you wait right here I'll wait for you whatever it takes Don't try to get me out of your way I know someday that I will find You once again, when you are mine I see you standing all so proud A sign above you yelling loud That she already has a man His name is Jesus and you're a fan So get away until it's time She opens up to match your rhyme  I don't know when she'll cross the sea But you'll see, if you wait right here I'll wait for you whatever it takes Don't try to get me out of your way I know someday that you will find Me once again, when it is time I understand! Please trust me I know you have great intentions I'm just saying I'm right here When you are ready I'll wait f...

Don't worry my darling t he night is coming in I've been out farming a nd now the stars are twinkling I am not there see b ut I promise I will Be there if you need me, I  care for you still I will be waiting e ven when the sun is coming in I won't be debating I 'll be here thick and thin I call to my God t o watch over you I ask him a lot t o tell me what to do I look up to the sky And see constellations  Orion Watch over her If she's crying Comfort her Can the stars in the sky shine down  on my baby? Can the constellations come down for her maybe? When I'm gone

When can I see you again?

I have a friend who is very gifted He has an amazing voice And writes the best music Jared will look up to him someday Tyson won't even compare When he opens up He becomes the greatest dude you will ever meet He is loyal Funny Wise And godly.  I like friends like that :)