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Good night

I've been lying here awake for hours.  What are you thinking about? What are you dreaming? You know I hope that you've been For hours sleeping But I can't help but wonder Do you have these nights? Do you know what it's like To lay in bed and sigh And think about the morrow  And think about you and I? Do you stare at the ceiling With those thoughts that I might die? Are you ever too scared to Just for a second close your eyes Cuz if this isn't reality Or if I'm living in a 7th grade fantasy Or if you are ever close to leaving me I don't want to wake up I don't want to go to sleep I want to stay right where I am I want to be next to you I want to spend every moment Looking after you Good night 

And I'm so sorry... I miss you

I almost pummeled you When I saw your face I ran so fast and almost took you down  Um, I guess the word's ashamed The stuff inside my brain can't handle Anything at all like you It thinks too much and acts without Anything to do So embarrassing things happen Like almost killing my very best friend And I see bad things happening In the future again and again Because the stuff inside my brain can't handle Anything at all like you It thinks too much and acts without Anything to do So the terrible stuff that happens Is... Because of you I hope someone read the title with blink 182 in their head

This is why I feel like a failure

There used to be a boy Who thought he had it all figured out He thought his life was amazing Always perfect, never a drought  He said, "I've already seen the worst of it." I already know just what to do. When temptation overcomes me I won't let it get to you Next thing you know Trips happen again Summer time madness Here for 5, leave for 10 I miss you I miss you I can't control myself  Stay away before it's too late Cries that freaking little elf Sitting on my left side My shoulder's getting bruised Because the right side over here is saying Dude you have way too much to lose He's jumping up and down yelling Don't you dare touch that hand While I reach out, I almost grab it He shouts louder than a band Don't fall under that trap from satan Once you step out you're a goner You know how "way leads on to way" I know, Lance, you're stronger Push away, absorb the pain Wait it out a while The future's more important now Don'
Don't worry I'm on my way home

Day 4

Coming home tomorrow I'd be so excited if I wasn't laying in a hotel bed Across the continent I'm so glad you had a good time And made so many new friends I hope that if you had the choice You would do it over again You know I'd talk forever Because wise decisions aren't my thing I would just think of the friendship growing Not staying up freakishly late, just bonding I want to hear the sound of your voice More than anything else And between all the exciting moments here My mind is somewhere else We'll be eating at voodoo donuts And I'll be thinking of you And we'll be catching ALL THE SALMON And I'll wish you were here too And we'll be doing whatever and everything And all that will be on my mind is Wishing you were here by my side Yeah you could say you've been missed

Day 3

One night, pretty long ago, I was walking my dog. I always walk my dog at night time because it's cooler. You weren't there and so I looked up and realized that we were under the same sky. Same stars. Same constellations. Orion is right in front of me with his weapons, and as I was walking I sang these words right off my head... Orion Won't you watch over her? If she's crying Will you comfort her? Can the stars in the sky shine down on my baby? Can the constellations come down for her, maybe When I'm gone? And tonight I was walking my dog. And I looked up at the stars... Hey there Delilah don't you worry about the distance I'm right there if you get lonely. Give this song another listen Close your eyes.  Listen to my voice, it's my disguise.  I'm by your side.

Day 2

I wander around this jungle No one is here I can't seem to find anything But fungus and fear The mushrooms grow bigger As my room grows smaller I'm trapped inside this place With just ribbits and without dollars I won't be able to exit Until I hear that song That faint "La la la" And everyone singing along It will mean that you're here Finally again And though it's just the second day I'm fearful you won't come around the bend Save me from this jungle Of sitting at home all day With nobody to talk to And Joshua and Caleb asking to play... *shudder* I know I'm supposed to be the one Singing, "be good and don't you miss me" My hopeful happy thoughts are fading Yeah you called it, they're history Come back and sing to me Keep being my melody You're song's always stuck in my head EE em aye L why?

Day 1

I feel your pain: I pictured a long hug A few final words and then you turn and go A turn of your head as you hop in a bus And as you drive off I watch as time is slow But no... I look back as I leave the room You are sitting with your friends A quick, "I'll miss you, have fun" was all I got To tell you before I had to leave you be We'll see If I don't break down in the next few days Because as I am here, you are far far away And I wait only to leave before you return And so I will come back home to you yet again And then I'll ask how your trip was and you'll ask about mine And we'll be so happy again but in the mean time I'll be waiting and waiting and you are having the time of your life Hopefully. While the mean time is being far to mean to me I'll be Waiting for you and then you will wait for me And then that day of independence for our country I will leave for a time much longer than this And we'll see the break
Dear Lord, help me with this day For me to give you praise With every move I make Dear Lord, help me think of thou Not just here and now For every moment me to bow Dear Lord, let me be your tool So I can bring your name to school Because I know I'm not "too cool" Dear Lord, I surrender to your word Help me to use it like a sword To protect me against this world. 

I don't get it

I sit here  With a song stuck in my head With a very clear vision Of the words that you just said With a joy in my heart That is unfathomable  Because of a love That's not malleable I can't stop looking To my side When you sit next me I almost die Cuz of the fireworks that pop Inside of my head When I look to my side I could almost drop dead No one that pretty Should be sitting next to me No one that amazing Should be where my eyes can see But you run to me  with open arms And your eyes get wide  My face looks like mars Red and fat and having no life But you keep the life in me Like I said, I'm so spoiled I just don't get what you see But I've heard you say the same And that's what I don't get Cuz if you were in my shoes You're freaking pants would get wet Cuz you're everything a guy could want Everything plus 1000 more Everything and nothing less From the outside to the core I kn

You're a bad song

you're a bad bad song And I will never sing along All the times that we had talked And now those moments are all gone And we were happy you and me And now your face is all I see When I look at the album cover Of your bad bad song The voices of your memories are screeching in my mind Because they're haunting all the history of my past that I can find And I can't seem To get it out of my head I can't seem To find another song instead Cuz you're a bad bad song And I will never sing along All the times that we had talked And now those moments are all gone And we were happy you and me And now your face is all I see When I look at the album cover Of your bad bad song The singing is like begging me to rid you of my thoughts Because the hearts and the kisses are really all that I had gotten And I can't seem To forgive myself for the time That I'd seen you as being mine! you're a bad bad song And I will never sing along All the t

Lost

The rain falls down and I walk out Standing on my own Until you come up standing tall and proud I hear, "You can't be alone." "I won't let you go it alone." And I stare into those deep deep eyes And no words come out with my smile Because somewhere deep inside I hear my voices cry, I get lost in your eyes I get lost in your smile I get lost in you I get lost in you I get lost in your words Yeah every single verse I get lost in you I get lost in you And I'll stay The H2O dropping far below places where it was born And it fell on us, they scream, "dangerous!" But it can't hurt, not even sore So let's dance in the rain for forevermore! And I stare into those deep deep eyes And every word floods out in my mind Because everywhere inside of me cries This new song will arise! I get lost in your eyes I get lost in your smile I get lost in you I get lost in you I get lost in your words Yeah every single verse
I'm gonna go and there will be too many memories They will flood in like a tidal wave I will sit in the place where I put a snow cone on her head and I will stand in the place where Jesus flooded my heart for the first time.  Our hearts they cry Be glorified Be lifted high Above all names For you our king With everything we will shout for your praise Tear Hands 1,000 Tear Goosebumps Jesus

Camp

And he sat there in the cafeteria waiting for her. Watching the door for her to walk through. Little 8th grade Lance. He looked up and saw that other girl who rode on the bus with them. She laughed. "What?" He said. "Nothing." She responded. He kept waiting with that terrible food and weird blue drink. She finally entered the room and he watched as she waited in line. "Stop staring" the other girl said. "You're being to obvious." 

Don't think

I'm not losing you I see you everyday Every moment I close my eyes Or look at the sky Or listen to the birds No, no goodbyes  So don't think now We'll wait for the morning When I am (leaving) And you are (working)  I'm here, I'm here I'll never leave  Look to your right At my poetry I'll always be waiting Come on friend Let's run like the wind Wendy  Let's run like the wind

In one breath

I wanna write a new song with the lyrics on the screen The chords in my head and a new tune to sing I wanna pluck those strings with the right sound in mind And when you ask me to play it I can play it alright Cuz I've played it over and over and what's it about? It's about how I can't write a song and words won't flow out of my mouth And you'll say, "Oh how ironic cuz you're singing right now" And I'll say, "Thanks, I didn't write it, but I'll still take a bow" Cuz it's the other guy who sometimes takes over my brain And I can't get him to keep out but he does keep me sane Cuz he gets all these words out that I never can think of And all my fingers are doing right now are just to keep calm

Pressure

The tears are flowing like a frozen waterfall                                                       I don't know where to start . is the smartest -- drives me nuts                .- is the mysterious one and --. gives me a smile      -.. is kind of oblivious                                                                                                 and so is -.-. but there's . again                                                                                                                     Why .-? What's the reason?                                                                                If -- would be silent                                             Maybe I could figure it out I almost did Don't say goodnight  .

Psalm 10:16-18

The Lord is King for ever and ever; The nations will perish from his land. You, Lord, hear the desire of the afflicted; You encourage them, and you listen to their cry, Defending the fatherless and the oppressed So that mere earthly mortals Will never again strike terror.  My God will protect me from the hand of the evil one. Every enemy in this life has no power against the one true God. He is a merciful God who hears the faintest of cries and reaches His hand down in love to protect us. He cares for those who don't have anyone to look after them. He fights on the bullied side. He is always there when you need Him. He hears your every thought and tends to all our needs. He loves us that much. 

I'll pray

I'm plugging my ears for the stuff I can't hear And I'm cutting the lights for the things I don't like I'm trying to stop them from coming my way I'm trying to stop them to help me stay sane I understand now the whole schooling battle Because some of the things now are just a rattle A faint little disturbance instead of a shock When for the first time I heard them I jumped out of my socks I don't want to get used to them, cuz it will lead to usage And I know that a fact because I used to use them He fixed up my life and I never said them again In fear that she might hear of my terrible sins But yes, I confess, I at one time was that Someone, or something, that spoke all that crap But I'm fighting it now, human nature I mean Because the things people say is stuff they can't scream It's disguised among certain little words Little phrases and joking about homosexuality and turds They want to say more about their pain and their stru

Good

Ok, I'll tell you The last seven days were spent thinking of you Because I had to picture something good in my mind to help me get through The dudes all around me were mean and trashy But I had to stay true to my God and you and that meant keeping myself classy Classy with the spirit and classy with the truth Because I'm not gonna put on another face for the crowd if it isn't who I'd be for you But the music was nice and the counselors were cool And it was really nice to get away from my house and one hundred percent forget school I love the place and I love the lake and it was all so amazing And I looked up one night and I saw the sky and I just wanted to stay star gazing Cuz we were under the same roof We were both under God's protection, a connection, it gave me a little proof That you were good